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Saturday, November 28, 2009

A time to admit the obvious

I suppose while the Avalanche are playing like crap, it's not a bad time to distract ourselves with some fun and excitement. Enter the Avalanche blog-off at The NHL Arena.

I received an email this evening letting me know that I was among the folks in the running to be declared the official Avalanche blog and the first thought that came to my head was "Who would vote for me?"

My immediate thought right after that was "Damn, that's a harsh realization." Granted it isn't out of line with my thoughts on my blogging performance of late, but it was still a bit of a slap in the face. And when you deliver a slap in the face to yourself, it hurts all the more.

I'm going to come clean on a few things here in what became a bit of a manifesto. It began as I drove home tonight from a bar where I was trying to forget about the Avs blowing a 2-0 lead. It wasn't the greatest plan since I don't drink anymore but the important part is that I tried, right?

First, as some of the long-time readers may remember, I struggled with health issues over the last couple years which were bad enough to cause me to cancel a trip to Denver. I still remember the day I decided to call off the trip. It was a gut-wrenching decision and one that I still question to this day.

While I'm well on the road to recovery and have figured out the cause - no thanks to any of my "doctors" - there are still lingering issues I'm battling with, most notably fatigue and head clarity.

Second, I work hard and take my job very seriously. I don't consider myself a workaholic any more but I exhaust a lot of energy at the office, energy that I sometimes don't have thanks to the aforementioned health issues.

Given that I hadn't taken a vacation completely away from work in years, you've got the recipes for a case of burnout. And the best part about my personality is that I'm stubborn as hell and proud as hell so I didn't want to admit to myself that I'd had enough until it was too late.

And so we arrive to this post where I'm admitting the obvious - for the past three months my heart just hasn't been in it. When I say "it", I'm referring to life on a whole but more specifically to blogging.

It started to feel like a job with a standard script: write a preview, write a recap, be snarky yet insightful, call out bad reporting, forget to praise good reporting, rinse, lather, repeat.

I sat by as new blogs popped up and other blogs expanded in coverage. And it was hard to see that all happening while my blog slid downhill. I felt a little bit like Fat Bastard. I was unhappy because I wasn't blogging, and I wasn't blogging because I was unhappy.

In fact, on more than one occasion I toyed with the idea of simply shutting it down. I didn't feel it fair to myself or to the Avalanche fan base to be putting in a half-baked effort. You all deserve the best coverage and commentary possible and I wasn't contributing to it.

Of course, that's an extreme measure and one I don't want to take. I enjoy writing, I love the Avalanche and it just makes sense to combine the two. That I've gotten a lot of recognition for my work has been rewarding as well. I'm not an attention-whore by any means but being involved in things like a CBC live-chat provide a large source of personal pride which everybody needs to have.

I'd love to end this post with a simple statement of "I'm back!" but I'm just not there yet. I've gone through a lot of moments where I felt I was back to 100% only to realize I was kidding myself, my friends and my fans.

But I am coming back. I'm nothing if not competitive and I feel the fire building up again. I won't declare the flame lit until I'm confident I can back it up though. I will continue to write and the level will improve, but it won't be the extensive coverage and commentary I used to churn out on a daily basis.

I'll end this by saying thanks to everyone who reads this blog with an extra special thanks to the ones who take the time to brave Blogger's arcane commenting system to add additional insight to it. And if you didn't want to brave it and ended up firing me an email, it's gold stars for you too.

In the meantime, you can't go wrong with any Avalanche blog out there and you really should be reading them all and not limiting yourself to one or two.

14 Comments:

horbayj said...

here i thought you were going to admit you were once again wrong about jones = 30 g

still love the blog man, take as much time as you need to get the fire back! and when you find it, fedex some to the boys

Shane Giroux said...

thanks, j.

I can't believe I jinxed Jones two years in a row. Next year, I'm calling him to get injured 15 games into the season. Surely he'll play all 82 games and score 30+, eh?

Tapeleg said...

Keeping up with the Joneses is always hard work. I've always liked your blog when it wasn't doing that. You would think that more Avs bloggers would make all this more fun, but I can't say that's the case.

Still, don't apologize. Your blog is your own kingdom. Do what you want with it, when you want to. I'll still be here to read. And I don't read that many Avs blogs. Keep it up, Shane.

Shane Giroux said...

I hear that, Tape. Sometimes you get stuck trying to keep up and lose your voice. You're usually there to ground me back though ;)

Matthew said...

Hey Shane! Feel better. You keep posting, I'll keep reading. Thanks!

Dario said...

I still read every post, even if it's from my RSS reader.

increp said...

Shane, I read every single post. Keep up the work, reading you is a part of my daily routine :)

I've got a question for you about hockey. Got asked about it by my g/f recently and couldn't come up w/ a decent explanation.

As you know, sometimes goalies are "hot" and "cold". As far as I know, that's just a descriptive term for how good they were recently compared to the overall record. What I don't understand, however, is the underlining reason for such variation in performance.

Let's take Anderson. He was amazing in October, stopping pucks that he had no business of stopping whatsoever. Now he gives out rebounds, seems slow to get back into position and things like that. Is this personal, is it fatigue, lack of concentration, what is it? He's a pro, the skills are still there I presume. I just can't wrap my head around this.

Could you comment on this free-style if you find the question interesting? Thank you! Timmie.

Jibblescribbits said...

I always click over here when you post new. You don't have to post daily to be insightful...

Keep on truckin'.

PS Vote Quinby...er Jibbles

Draft Dodger said...

I think you're the first Avalanche blog I ever followed and you're still one of my favorites. I'll echo the above that you don't need to spam the internet like those MHH clowns to be entertaining :)

Shane Giroux said...

Thanks, matt and dario.

increp, Anderson has always looked slow on his recovery times. He's also looked a little too freestyle recently when going post to post.

When it was working for him, as it was tonight against the Lightning, it's cool by me. When it isn't, I find myself wishing he'd speed up a bit.

In his defense....well those last 3 words are probably the best defense he's had around him lately.

Rebound control is somewhat overrated and you have to rely on your defense to snatch up those loose pucks.

Shane Giroux said...

jib, true that. But what if you can't even find the energy to be insightful on a weekly basis? :P

dd, yeah those MHH guys must have some sort of AI writing for them to get that much out every day ;)

Jibblescribbits said...

Shane:

You just need to relax. Ever think of getting a massage?

texacogirl said...

Keep your chin up, Shane. Long term illness really weighs on a person so give yourself a break. I'm still reading as much as you post! Hope you continue to get better. Best wishes.

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